I have thought of missing you,
Right before I even did so.
I’ve thought of yesterday
Bidding me goodbye,
That now it waves at me
Saying “hello”.
I’ve thought of stars, winking at you,
For me.
I’ve thought of you, you only:
If my head could reach
Your very shoulders.
When was the last time
You wore high heels?
How high angels really were up there?
You are my tallest crush.
And I miss you.
I wonder if goodbye would come,
If I have helloed as often as I could.
I wonder if I have missed you
Years back, 23 years.
I’ve thought of storms
Pouring themselves out into rains,
Departing, leaving their all:
Piece after piece, emptying
Into nothing.
I want to be that one cloud completed.
I want you as though
You were the first dew
Of dawn.
I’ve thought of not writing for you,
Before I even did so.
I’ve thought of poetry and how come
There had been a lot of poems
Yearning
For true love.
When I see you,
I remember Neruda, Cummings,
And Shakespeare,
How they’ve written of rubbish,
When all you got to say
(when statuary, right in front of you)
Is that: "Show your smile, my love.”
Then there was poetry.
I’ve thought of your very origin.
I’ve thought of God’s breath,
And how breathing affects people.
If we are to be inhaled back
Through His nostrils,
Then let me go with you.
Let us go home, together,
Breathing.
I’ve thought… of the love… of Christ.
I was lost and now was found,
You found me.
I’ve thought of finding you
More than missing you,
And yet
I still miss you.
I remember…
I remember how this woman
Looked like
When she was singing…
…for God.
© 2012 J.S.P.
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